After crying every day since 28th, i have decided.
It's 10:14am in the morning. Around 2am+ last night, i saw something that broke my heart. Lol... i shall not say it out but it really broke me into like a million pieces. Heartless (!!!) So i was losing control and crying like crazy, luckily Brainless was on MSN with me and she saw the whole thing too. She immediately cabbed down to find me. After crying like crazy and using half a tissue box and talking and asking WHY WHY WHY for hours, she finally SCREAMED YES LITERALLY SCOLDED ME and talked sense into me. Why was i being so miserable when he has already moved on? Haha, and im the only one stuck here? I never seemed to get this point cause i always secretly hoped that he still loved me and that he had nothing on with her. But too bad i was wrong lah and yes i was damn hurt. I can imagine everything, i thought back from our memories when playing L4D2/L4D, eating @ parklane, Playing pool-yes lah i cant play so i wait for him, so maybe that sucked for him idk and she is someone who can play pool with him. Lol everything i have done with him, he does so with her. I dont know if they are tgthr but they seem to be enjoying each other's company. Besides, his ring has disappeareddddd alr - He said only if he takes out the ring means he doesn't love me anymore.
As i was crying for someone who doesn't give 2 flying fucks about my life, someone out there might be dying? Crying cause his/her partner died? Living in poverty?
And im wasting my time!
I got hurt to the max already, i cannot take anymore in.
Having her pictures and stuff, clubbing, going out tgthr on dates LIKE WTF lah.
I feel so fucking stupid! But well its a lesson learnt.
i really loved him very very deeply. But i guessed, he's just not my Mr.Right.
I know all these happened after break up, so i have no right to comment whether he has a fling/gf/wife/lol idk.........
but still, i got hurt very badly.
And now, im moving on. Not worth my tears.
Should have known since 4 months ago.
My girls would be so proud of me :)
walao now gg to school with NO SLEEP AND PUFFY EYES AND BLOCKED NOSE
SIAN LAHHHHHHHHH :(
It's 10:14am in the morning. Around 2am+ last night, i saw something that broke my heart. Lol... i shall not say it out but it really broke me into like a million pieces. Heartless (!!!) So i was losing control and crying like crazy, luckily Brainless was on MSN with me and she saw the whole thing too. She immediately cabbed down to find me. After crying like crazy and using half a tissue box and talking and asking WHY WHY WHY for hours, she finally SCREAMED YES LITERALLY SCOLDED ME and talked sense into me. Why was i being so miserable when he has already moved on? Haha, and im the only one stuck here? I never seemed to get this point cause i always secretly hoped that he still loved me and that he had nothing on with her. But too bad i was wrong lah and yes i was damn hurt. I can imagine everything, i thought back from our memories when playing L4D2/L4D, eating @ parklane, Playing pool-yes lah i cant play so i wait for him, so maybe that sucked for him idk and she is someone who can play pool with him. Lol everything i have done with him, he does so with her. I dont know if they are tgthr but they seem to be enjoying each other's company. Besides, his ring has disappeareddddd alr - He said only if he takes out the ring means he doesn't love me anymore.
As i was crying for someone who doesn't give 2 flying fucks about my life, someone out there might be dying? Crying cause his/her partner died? Living in poverty?
And im wasting my time!
I got hurt to the max already, i cannot take anymore in.
Having her pictures and stuff, clubbing, going out tgthr on dates LIKE WTF lah.
I feel so fucking stupid! But well its a lesson learnt.
i really loved him very very deeply. But i guessed, he's just not my Mr.Right.
I know all these happened after break up, so i have no right to comment whether he has a fling/gf/wife/lol idk.........
but still, i got hurt very badly.
And now, im moving on. Not worth my tears.
Should have known since 4 months ago.
My girls would be so proud of me :)
walao now gg to school with NO SLEEP AND PUFFY EYES AND BLOCKED NOSE
SIAN LAHHHHHHHHH :(
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